Today, I realized that my spiritual life hasn't been as disciplined as I'd like, or need, it to be. I go through times when I'm fairly regularly in the Word, praying, and so forth, and (many) other times when I'm not. Excuses range from "I'm too tired," "I have no time," to "My Bible is all the way across the room, and I'm too lazy to get up and get it."
Well...enough is enough.
How can I expect to be effective for the Kingdom if I am ill equipped? I have nobody to blame for my dry spell but myself. All these years, I've been complaining about my church, how it is emotionally unhealthy, there is little to no teaching and mentoring, how I'd like to find another church but can't. The truth is, while the church is very important (VERY important), I shouldn't be expecting it to just feed me, to give me all the answers. I can't grow like that. I need to want to find God on my own. I've been a Christian all my life; I shouldn't be satisfied by staying in the church all the time. That's not what the Church is there for.
So here I am. Today, I start to continue my journey. It is my hopes that I will use this space to make note of the lessons learned, and inspirations from the Word, Spirit, and others. Here will I process my thoughts and prayers. I don't claim to have the answers, nor do I have the questions, but I need to start looking.
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